In my life I have been striven to have the very best of intentions, have a good heart, don't hold hate in my heart, be excepting and have tolerances even when those around me don't do the same.. I have looked the other way when others have done me wrong. I have loved those that clearly don't know how to love back. I have given 1,000% even when I had nothing left to give. I go beyond what should be expected of me as both a wife, mother friend and basic human being.
Now I don't do those these things so I will get a gold star, have people pat me on my head and say Oh what a good person she is. I do these things because its my job as a wife to support my husband even when he does something that I told him was a bad idea and then try very hard to NOT say I told you so. Have his back at all times of the day and night.
Its my job as a mom to go without what ever my needs may be sleep, food, shoes ( which just for the record I have only ONE pair of shoes) or that impulse soda at the checkout line. Give my last dollar so that someone can go on a field trip, drink coffee with no sugar because we had to have Kool-aid. So why then is it that I can for the life of me get anyone of the 8 EIGHT yeah that right EIGHT kids to do anything I ask them too? I have one that lives on her own that pays her own bills, runs her own house and really does not need me any longer except as a sounding board and to just check in and see how I am doing. I have another who blames everyone but her self for her life being in ruins and says NO ONE loves her and its all our fault she is jobless, loosing her child to her ex spouse and just a mess. A son who only comes over when he wants something or needs his dad to do something for him. A son who just started to work after NOT working for over 2 yrs but still has time for video games but no time to give his dog a bath or to feed her or cleanup any messes she makes.
Then there's the daughter that hurts the most the one who lives less than 20 minutes away and NEVER calls, never comes over not because she does not want too ( or it may be that) but because her girlfriend does not like us !! WTF is that she does not like us.? Is it because we are against the gays.? NO very much not against them in any way. Is it because we include her in each and every family dinner we plan to have that they cant make because they have to go and do something with her family. Its a wild hair up her ass that she thinks she is better than us.
More on this later. Because a lass it is time for the nightly fight of homework, dinner and baths.. THIS FOLKS IS WHY I DRINK.
